Dumb or Innocent?

I don't know what happens.But all of the sudden I remember embarassing moments back at elementary school.
The tears I showed him and entire class.
The things I did to make him look at me.
But I do realise something.
I thank him.Really.
Because if he wasn't there in my life.
I wouldn't change my shy personality into how I am today.
I wouldn't open my eyes to fashion like I am right now.
I wouldn't have many friends like I do now.(I used to be alone all the time.I always kept my head down)
So,thank you.
Although I couldn't reach you,although I couldn't be with you nor seen by you.
I guess,I'm thankful enough that I met you in the first place.
I thank enough that you realise I was exist.
It's sad really.
It's horrible that up till now.
You're still my number one.
But you..You already dated 8 girls back when we were at 6th grade.
That's why I always feel small near you.
Small in size too.LOL
Well.that's all I want to say.
Maybe if I succeed at what I am trying to do.
I will forget you.We will walk on a different path,won't meet each other for years.
What I mean by forget is that I won't cry everytime I see you.
But I promise I will never forget what I had with you.
Because no matter what happen in the future,I know that you will have a special space in my heart.
Deep deep inside.
Where no boys in this whole wide world can take it from you.
You are my first.
The first to make my heart beats 3 times faster,the first to make me happy everytime we talk,the first to make me shy,to make my face red,to make me cry,and to make me own the world when you invite me to your house.
^^

Go Away

Why did I see him when I wanted to forget about him?

A few days ago at PVJ I saw him at the parking lot.He was walking with his new friends while I was inside the car.

But my mom was there so I just acted cold and looked at him from the corner of my eyes.

Soon I regretted it.If only I had looked at him longer,I wouldn't have been crazy over him.

I walked around the mall over and over again until every corners I could find.

Then I saw someone who looks like him.

My sister said it was him.

But I didn't believe her.

I starred at him to make sure it was really him.

But his friends began to laugh at me as they pointed me.

Maybe their conversation was like,"Dude,there's a girl looking at you,"

I felt like I've lost my face so I quickly covered my self.

Other from that problem.

I am very thankfull that finally,after all this time,I could see him.

Although it was no longer than 2 seconds.

Anyway,

I've made a big decision that will change my future.

I don't know why I finally agreed and put all my courage,spirit,mind and body for this.

I just don't know if this is right.

I'll do my best and think of what will happen next later.

The most important is working hard,right?

One more thing

about Lee Soo Man.

I know I hate him.I really do.

Because what he did to H.O.T,DBSK,and Hankyung.

But I don't know what to say too.Because without him there wouldn't be H.O.T.

There wouldn't be DBSK

and there wouldn't be Super Junior,SHINee,SHINHWA,f(x) and SNSD(Though I don't really like them)

He's annoying but he's great.

It makes me hate him even more.

Because I am speechless.

I hate him but I thank him for making such a great bands that caused mania.

So..

I don't know.

I just don't know what to say.

Still don't like him.zzzz

LMAO^^

Oh,my.Tony,you're so cute.....

Jaejoooonnnng!!Changmin!!!
Gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I can't believe this T________T

I can't believe this.I did some research about lee soo man and SM entertainment and figured out how scary the man is.
He...Only gave pennies every album H.O.T sold.
And after they disbanded.
Moon Hee Jun started solo career.
His first album sold 600.000 copies.
But SM decided not to support him anymore.
And he has to poured down all his money and savings for his second album.
Fans were sleeping in front of his house when one morning they saw his mother came out crying as she said,"Please.Please save my Hee Jun"
I don't if these rumours are true or not.
But one that I know.SM is a very scary place.
I mean the forum said that.
DBSK is like the next generation of H.O.T
The dancer..U-Know Yunho is like Jang Woo Hyuk
English speaker..Micky is like Tony
The cute one..the more you see him the more you'll like them...Xiah Junsu is like Lee Jae Won
Handsome face,nice voice..Hero Jaejoong is like Moon Hee Jun
The cute,amazing,and when you see him you got a feeling like you want to take care of him..Max Changmin is like Kangta.

The one who said this is currently 22 years old.
She was a member of H.O.T and she was quite active in the forum.So she knows many things.
She also said they still watch over the members until 8 to 9 years after they disbanded.

I got a feeling the forum was written in 2010.

Anyway,it also said that H.O.T's money was being used for Boa,SM's favourite child.
I wasn't a fan of Boa.But after I read this.
I feel like..
Geez...
It also said that Boa is quite bossy.

Anyway,H.O.T manager felt sorry and pitty the boys very much.
That's why he planned to pull out the boys out of SM.
But he was caught off and soon fired.
Now he is working for SIDUS.
He was also a manager of G.O.D
That's why SM hates G.O.D so much.

That's only a piece of Lee Soo Man's dangerousness.
Btw,I watched Strength of Love starring Kangta and Tony.
It was Hope song era.(I know since Tony played the song)
And it was a master piece.
Both of them are dying for.
So handsome.

Anyway,
I can't get my mind out of what happened to Hee Jun.
Lee Soo Man..
That guy just declared war to us,
H.O.T and DBSK fans.
Or should I say..
He had declared war to us A LOOOOONG TIME AGO!

I present this post to 'Dedicated to H.O.T'
Which is H.O.T's eternal fans.
Forever H.O.T!!VIVA!!!!

White angel

Sorry for being extraunordinary mean for some posts.
I was kind of crazy with H.O.T.hahaha
They sure are cool,aren't they.
But I feel better after I read an article.
They said that Kangta sugessted a reunion.
They are going to REUNITE i suppose.
This is amazing,right?
I really hope it's true.XD
I'm proudly say(with all H.O.T fans for all times),WE'RE FOREVER WHITE ANGELS!!!
I am writing a fanfiction about H.O.T too on winglin.
Here's the link:
www.winglin.net/fanfic/charice02/
This is Yamajima Fanfic.Love triangle with Shida Mirai.Chinen Yuri and Ohgo Suzuka are the side story.
www.winglin.net/fanfic/charice01/
I always love H.O.T

What the hell is wrong with this guy?

OMG!
I can't believe how much I hate Lee Su Man!
First,he's so crazy of money that he never gives royalties as much as other companies.
You know that's why H.O.T disbanded,right?
And they formed J.T.L and again.
That Lee Su Man seemed to blocked their way to show in public.
Damned you!!
Okay,first one is fine really.
And again!!The second one happened to DBSK.The case is almost the same.
And then Jaejoong,junho and Yoochun formed JYJ.
It happened again!!
Lee Su Man blocked it again.Why can't they show on Music Bank and Stuffs?Why?
What's wrong with that guy?
I think he's pshyco.
I hate him!I hate him!I really do!!!
I hope he goes down from his chair quickly and let Kangta replace that old man.
Okay,sorry if I'm being harsh.
But he's so unforgivable.
He's too much!He's just too much!

Tony ahn!!!!!

Okay,hari ini gw mau review film Sanctum deh.
2 hari yang lalu gw baru nonton d PVJ soalnya.
Asik lhoh.Pas hari minggu PVJ rame banget.Jadi bener"kerasa suasana mall'a.
Biasanya sich ga tralu.hahahaha
Oyah.
Film itu kan ngebahas tentang perjuangan keluar dari dalem gw.
Tokohnya Frank,Josh(anaknya Frank),Carl,George,ma Victoria(pacarnya Carl)
Mereka kejebak di dalem dan satu per satu meninggalkan tubuhnya ke alam baka.
Yang selamat cuma satu,Josh.
Menurut gw film ini keren banget.
Cuma karena gw sedikit meong makanya kebanyakan nutup mata.
Ga tega ngeliat yang tragis"kayak pas Luko'a mati.Mukanya kan ancur tuh.
Terus pas Victoria tereak"gara"rambutnya kejepit.
Pas Frank mau mati,c Josh's nangis"
Aduh miris banget deeeeh.
Kenapa juga ya nekat nyelidikin gw.
Bahaya kan.
Kalo gw personally sich ga suka banget ma gua.
Soalnya gw tuh takut banget ma tempat gelap dan sempit.
Ditambah lembab lg.
Bunuh diri kayakny gw.
Hahahah.qdink"
Oya film ini ceritanya di Papua Nugini.Gua yang belom pernah dijelajahin manusia.
Esa ala cave.
Tapi pas c carl di heli ngasih liat gw yang super gede itu,itu tuh settingnya di Meksiko.
Cave of Shallows.
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Oya, gw seneng banget H.O.T!!!
Kangta!!!Tony!!!!!
OMG!!!!
They are so cool!!
I wish I were born on 80's.Late 80's is fine though.
But not 1996.Geez!!
That's when they sang Candy.
T____T
so unfaiiiiiir.
Mom,why didn't you marry earlier(that's no use actually.She was still a teenager at that time)
XD
Anyway,I can't accept the fact that Tony won't be showing at Oh my school anymore!
I hardly protest!!!!
Who is the owner of that show actually??
Pleaseee.Please play Tony again.
He's the one that I see at Oh! My School
Why??
Why remove him??
I feel like I want to sue him/her(the owner of Oh!My School)
But that's no use either,right?
Damned..=.=
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Here's Hope by H.O.T

Tony,you're so cool!!

Prince

I love 'crazy little thing called love'!!!
Waaaaaaaaa>.<

The damnest thing is I wasn't invited to someone's sweet 17 at hyatt hotel.

I was so stressed because she invited Mario Maurer to her party!!!!OMOUUUUUUUUUUUU!
hueeeee

Mommy,I want Mario Maurer in my party is well!I don't care how much it costs,I want Mario Maurer!
And also Peach!!

Hueeeeeee...That's so unfair.Because no matter how hard I beg,it will never come true.

Hello!?It's gonna be very expensive.

Even if we manage to invite them,I don't have any idea how are we going to eat after that.(just a phrase.hehehe.It's not like we're really not gonna have money to eat)

Oh well...

The 'Goo Jun Pyo'  I talked about.I don't know really.

He doesn't know me.So it's kinda impossible to hope too much.

He will never be mine anyway.That sucks.

=_=  T__T  ~.~

hahahaha.Forget it then.I Just open his facebook page everyday with hope he doesn't use a program to detect who opened his page.

Please don't make him use that program.

It's the end of the world for meeeeeeeeeee....